it hurts

to see you like this....and what's more there's nothing much that i could do, and furthermore, i'm very sure there isn't anything that i can actually do. I guess, i'll just go on with this kind of life, together with these kind of emotions for quite..awhile..it's been years i felt this way, from very often, to sometimes, to nearly dissappear, and now it came again, and everyday....there's a crack, where it just get bigger, and deeper. I really wonder when, i could just stop crying and smilling at the same time..