Saturday, March 25, 2006
It's been 30 days since that day you had left. Missing your voice, deprive for not being able to hug you, craving for your scent, and your warmth hand. Even the word "Miss you" cant comprehend how much i've been thinking of you all these while.I hope those days means something to you, as it means alot for me...to show how much i really care, and how much i regreted last time. And here once again, i'm sorry..for what i did last time, i never ask for forgiveness, but i'd always hope that the following days that i spend with you, would show how much i really love you. If this 30 days are short, 60 days, if it's still short, 120 days, 240 days, 480 days..no matter how long it takes, i'll be always watching over you, till you truly find out what happiness is..and i hope i'm the one who would show you that. ^^
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
How many friends around us that actually bringing out the best from us ? People who say yes to your interest, interested with your dream, dream about what you gonna be when archieving goals, and supporting your decision all the time ?
I always wonder, in a certain stage, when only people will realize the fact that their action, actually causing alot of trouble to others ? Of course, no one knows what will change if you go back to the past and killing someone or altering something. It might create a huge chain reaction, even it's just a leaf.
Point is, as long as people wouldn't take serious on words that other had told, they wouldn't know what kind of feeling they're hurting on others. And to prevent that, friends existed. But, how many of us would actually really think that friends, are actually important ?
It's been month since then, and everything goes unexpectedly. You told me that i might be hurt, after telling me all those thing. Of course, i am...even tho i knew it all along, yes. All along. I'm wondering that if you realize, that what you told me, has a linkage of what i did, for the past few month. Not asking you whom you really love, not bugging you to do things you wouldn't want. Letting you going on your own pace, i think that already explain most of what i understand. There's reason on everything i did, or said...and the reason is you...don't get me wrong, i'm not saying all these for my own sake; but i just know that i'll be unfair to you, if you don't know anything about what my feelings are.
I'm not afraid of hopes that you give me might not come true, nor do you never give hopes to me. But, i wouldn't ask more, since staying by your side is already what i wish for. No matter what happens, i'll always watch over you.
When still got chances, i'll always let you know how much i love you. ^^ And don't worry about being afraid of telling me something that might hurt me, you can just keep it to yourself...cause i knew it all along, and until the time you're ready to tell, i'll make sure i'm there.
I always wonder, in a certain stage, when only people will realize the fact that their action, actually causing alot of trouble to others ? Of course, no one knows what will change if you go back to the past and killing someone or altering something. It might create a huge chain reaction, even it's just a leaf.
Point is, as long as people wouldn't take serious on words that other had told, they wouldn't know what kind of feeling they're hurting on others. And to prevent that, friends existed. But, how many of us would actually really think that friends, are actually important ?
It's been month since then, and everything goes unexpectedly. You told me that i might be hurt, after telling me all those thing. Of course, i am...even tho i knew it all along, yes. All along. I'm wondering that if you realize, that what you told me, has a linkage of what i did, for the past few month. Not asking you whom you really love, not bugging you to do things you wouldn't want. Letting you going on your own pace, i think that already explain most of what i understand. There's reason on everything i did, or said...and the reason is you...don't get me wrong, i'm not saying all these for my own sake; but i just know that i'll be unfair to you, if you don't know anything about what my feelings are.
I'm not afraid of hopes that you give me might not come true, nor do you never give hopes to me. But, i wouldn't ask more, since staying by your side is already what i wish for. No matter what happens, i'll always watch over you.
When still got chances, i'll always let you know how much i love you. ^^ And don't worry about being afraid of telling me something that might hurt me, you can just keep it to yourself...cause i knew it all along, and until the time you're ready to tell, i'll make sure i'm there.
Monday, March 13, 2006
It's been awhile since i touch my books, there's 3 fiction lying infront of me, that i don't even have time to read it. More likely it's because there's something more important to know, than those who people created.
Just finish the 11 days event at The Mines, tired ? No, but stress; YES ! But overall it was fun, and memorable. Tho i didn't attend their own photo section, due to the work during closing. Not sure why i'm doing so much, when i'm also one of the temp staff, maybe i'm just trying to be nice ?
Gonna meet a client that request for a programme tomorrow. Or should i say, later in the afternoon ? This is the very first time i was given such a big task (well, compare to handling the whole group of people during work). But seriously, a year ago..i'm very confident of myself, being a programmer, but now..i know nuts about programming. Might as well give myself a chance, to start over again, since i'm..already lost...and since, the path already light up. =)
Was thinking of going oversea at the end of May, hope things will goes smoothly. Australia is a very weird, or should i say an unbelievable place, even just now friends was talking about Australia during yamcha section. Weird ? not. That bless place, already become part of my life...for now..
Took me awhile to write a CV, it's already 347am here, and i still haven't start writing my resume. Even tho i wasn't inform when i need to submit it, but meeting a client, and interview at the same time, will gonna add in more things to stress on myself. Didn't know if it's good, or bad; but all i can just say is "I have to move on".
Found out how much time i wasted after writing the CV, 2 years ? or maybe 3 ? doing things that never complete. How much i wish that time can be turned back, and start over new just like games. Well, it's not games we're talking about here, it's life. Good thing is, people learn how to regret, the bad is; they're not forgiven.
"Girls are hard to pleased, and guys are not trusthworthy." A typical statement that'll come out from a typical girl, everytime when we talk about relationship, and love. It's weird, even tho everyone knows that it's fair in love and war, but it seems that none of them actually remember that, when they can't get what they want, nor doing sacrifices that they wouldn't want. It's just as same as a question to every lover in this world, "How much you willing to sacrifice for someone you love ?", and as for me...there's no actual, or exact answer. Things changes everyday anyway, shits happen, but as for the commitment i'd made, i can only say the love that i had now, will only grow, and sacrifices are for the love i committed in. Silly ? Sweet ? Dumb ? or Lovey dovy ? I would say, it's up to the person to decide, but not our own.
Time after time, people would think of what they can do for someone they like/love, such as when the time you get your salary, you would think of what to buy. The time when you pass by a clothes shop, you wonder how they'll look like on those clothes. Or maybe when you're having a meal that you kinda like it, you wanna share it with them, and wonder if they like it. Well, people wonder all the time, assuming, and guessing. Human being, aren't mind readers. They are born with ears and mouth to communicate, and a brain to determine their actions, and faith in them. A heart, that fill with emotions, and actions, which will ends the wonders, or thoughts. I've been wondering all the time also, wonder how much can a person go, for believing someone. People get dissapointed easily, but how many of them would bear with it till the end of time ? I'm suppose, even if i get the answer from someone regarding this, it won't be understandable, cause...even i myself whois bearing with alot of sadness, along with happiness. Still can't find an answer to that.
They kiss, hug, holding hands, whisper, sending gifts, celebrating anniversaries/etc, going out, sharing foods. From the outside, they're just a typical lover, where every lover would do. But, how meaningful would all those things be ? There's always a different, when you kiss someone you love on their cheek, or..a friend. All i can say is, it's still up to a persons. Someone might upset about their partners for kissing others, even it's just a greeting. But even some that understands that, they kept quite, take the pain to themself, and goes on with their life. Since, they want the best out of their partner, why want complain over something that they always do ? I always wonder, if a feeling of love will detoriate overtime when things like these happens, when..we keep the unhappiness to ourself.
No matter what happens, it's always good to handle it onsite, and solve it as soon as possible, rather than running away. Cause, if you tend to run away and thought everything will be fine, things are always happening behind...and that's why, people should always tell their close one, that they're not alone. And most importantly, be honest with our own heart and feelings. Because we never know what kind of word we said, that might hurt them forever.
Just finish the 11 days event at The Mines, tired ? No, but stress; YES ! But overall it was fun, and memorable. Tho i didn't attend their own photo section, due to the work during closing. Not sure why i'm doing so much, when i'm also one of the temp staff, maybe i'm just trying to be nice ?
Gonna meet a client that request for a programme tomorrow. Or should i say, later in the afternoon ? This is the very first time i was given such a big task (well, compare to handling the whole group of people during work). But seriously, a year ago..i'm very confident of myself, being a programmer, but now..i know nuts about programming. Might as well give myself a chance, to start over again, since i'm..already lost...and since, the path already light up. =)
Was thinking of going oversea at the end of May, hope things will goes smoothly. Australia is a very weird, or should i say an unbelievable place, even just now friends was talking about Australia during yamcha section. Weird ? not. That bless place, already become part of my life...for now..
Took me awhile to write a CV, it's already 347am here, and i still haven't start writing my resume. Even tho i wasn't inform when i need to submit it, but meeting a client, and interview at the same time, will gonna add in more things to stress on myself. Didn't know if it's good, or bad; but all i can just say is "I have to move on".
Found out how much time i wasted after writing the CV, 2 years ? or maybe 3 ? doing things that never complete. How much i wish that time can be turned back, and start over new just like games. Well, it's not games we're talking about here, it's life. Good thing is, people learn how to regret, the bad is; they're not forgiven.
"Girls are hard to pleased, and guys are not trusthworthy." A typical statement that'll come out from a typical girl, everytime when we talk about relationship, and love. It's weird, even tho everyone knows that it's fair in love and war, but it seems that none of them actually remember that, when they can't get what they want, nor doing sacrifices that they wouldn't want. It's just as same as a question to every lover in this world, "How much you willing to sacrifice for someone you love ?", and as for me...there's no actual, or exact answer. Things changes everyday anyway, shits happen, but as for the commitment i'd made, i can only say the love that i had now, will only grow, and sacrifices are for the love i committed in. Silly ? Sweet ? Dumb ? or Lovey dovy ? I would say, it's up to the person to decide, but not our own.
Time after time, people would think of what they can do for someone they like/love, such as when the time you get your salary, you would think of what to buy. The time when you pass by a clothes shop, you wonder how they'll look like on those clothes. Or maybe when you're having a meal that you kinda like it, you wanna share it with them, and wonder if they like it. Well, people wonder all the time, assuming, and guessing. Human being, aren't mind readers. They are born with ears and mouth to communicate, and a brain to determine their actions, and faith in them. A heart, that fill with emotions, and actions, which will ends the wonders, or thoughts. I've been wondering all the time also, wonder how much can a person go, for believing someone. People get dissapointed easily, but how many of them would bear with it till the end of time ? I'm suppose, even if i get the answer from someone regarding this, it won't be understandable, cause...even i myself whois bearing with alot of sadness, along with happiness. Still can't find an answer to that.
They kiss, hug, holding hands, whisper, sending gifts, celebrating anniversaries/etc, going out, sharing foods. From the outside, they're just a typical lover, where every lover would do. But, how meaningful would all those things be ? There's always a different, when you kiss someone you love on their cheek, or..a friend. All i can say is, it's still up to a persons. Someone might upset about their partners for kissing others, even it's just a greeting. But even some that understands that, they kept quite, take the pain to themself, and goes on with their life. Since, they want the best out of their partner, why want complain over something that they always do ? I always wonder, if a feeling of love will detoriate overtime when things like these happens, when..we keep the unhappiness to ourself.
No matter what happens, it's always good to handle it onsite, and solve it as soon as possible, rather than running away. Cause, if you tend to run away and thought everything will be fine, things are always happening behind...and that's why, people should always tell their close one, that they're not alone. And most importantly, be honest with our own heart and feelings. Because we never know what kind of word we said, that might hurt them forever.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
It's march, and i decided to write something different..
4th March, The Mines exhibition Centre. It’s 10:34am here, and my work is nothing except rotting and listening to mp3’s for 9 hours, cool ? NOT ! I rather have my hand full of work, that will makes my time passes even more faster. Further more, writing an offline blog during working time, is kind of sad. Don’t ask me why, I just anyhow say.
Alright..let’s see, I’ll describe what’s surrounding me, 5 thread that use for name tags, a stack of done exhibitor pass on my left, a stupid printer on ma left, phone at the keyboard slide, side drawer with rubbish, a pen on the left of this laptop, while stapler on the right. Further to the right, there’s 2 more laptops, with similarity of what I said just now. Well, it’s a registration counter anyway.
Nuff’ said, back to work.
Alright..let’s see, I’ll describe what’s surrounding me, 5 thread that use for name tags, a stack of done exhibitor pass on my left, a stupid printer on ma left, phone at the keyboard slide, side drawer with rubbish, a pen on the left of this laptop, while stapler on the right. Further to the right, there’s 2 more laptops, with similarity of what I said just now. Well, it’s a registration counter anyway.
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Look at the "crowd" !
He...playing Games there. lol
Laptop i'm using during work, resembles someone's laptop =/
my bracelet...daisuKiii !!
goody bags, want ?
I’ve been ask once, that what’s the difference between a very close friend, and a normal couple. And, what I had in mind that time was : Well, you wouldn’t call someone a couple for nothing. Here’s my conclusion: You already know.Nuff’ said, back to work.
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