#101

Sometimes i wonder, how significant my existance can be
who am i to you
who am i to him
who am i to this, that...bla bla bla
i won't made the same mistake again
falling in love the same way
going back the same path
and have a chance that history might repeat
everyday the only thing that i can do is
to watch over people dear to me getting hurt
people getting tear apart
being helpless
and sometimes, i just can't do anything.

Just imagine how strong it is
for someone to love someone
when everything else doesn't matter
and to missed out most of the important besides that
i know what position i am
i know who i am to you
i knew i might just be a decoy
or maybe i'm just someone u need when u're down
and of course i know what i should do
and even if you don't know or understand
or maybe even think i might be misunderstood or whatsoever
don't worry
cause no matter what happen, i'm still me..i'll just be there in the shadow
become just like a left hand
where no one will know i exist, helping in the shadow
just like what i've been always do before i seek for my own relationship
just when i called myself fallenangel
i really hope nothing more for myself
than to you
to everyone
of your own happiness
this is my New Year Wished that i wished for
when i'm at singapore
that i would rather sacrifice my own dream,
to wish for your dream came true
and i wont be as greedy as last time
to ask for more
than just to see you smile.

even tho it has reached 101 post
i am still deciding whether i should start let people read about this
or maybe
i should just keep this
until.....things get better and calmed...