I've been always wondering when will be the day like this will happens, the day where 2 person's thoughts can be differ from each other when there are things to be done.
"If all you can say that you care, but you can't show it. You're just lying". Perhaps i'll be a liar all these while. Not to mentioned there will never be a day that i'll be someone that everyone hope for. I'm not the kind of person whom wanna live up to people's expectation, i just wanna live the life i want. Is that hard ?
Everytime when things goes like this, when i was hoping that you would understand and do not worried about things like 'these', it never will happen. In the end we'll just up for some arguement that you think everything went absolutely wrong, and at my end there's nothing that actually went wrong.
What's wrong with not seeing each other for a few days, as of last time when people do not have Handphones and time, they still love each other even tho they see each other once a month.
What's wrong with me for not being around once in awhile when you're with your friends ? It's not like im neglecting you or something, at least the time i'm using is for the future that i think it would help.
If you truly think that i don't say anything, means that you're facing all these alone. Then i'm afraid to say the life that i'm living is much more lonely than what you can think of. I can't think of anything which is much even worst than not be able to reply, talk, or to express when one's having conversation. No one ever know, how does it feel that when you're quiet and not being able to say anything.
If i am not someone who can say as much as people wish, means i'm not. If i am not talkactive as other people, means i'm different. If i'm not doing anything that people doing all the time, it doens't mean i don't have the thoughts. People can accept the fact that i don't care if i don't voice out, but people will never care and accept that you care if you did something. I guess, words are more important for people than "availability", haha. Ironic world.
If i would to explain every little thing, you would go answer and give you opinion on everything i said, if i were to give mine opinion after yours, that would leaves as if i'm not acknowledging, and worst it'll only lead to "i make you cry" situation. Things like this just keep repeating, and repeating. I've been always wonder if it's normal for people to think of everything as bad prospect as long as they weren't being pampered.
The bottom line is, i'm different. Stop treating me the same as other people. And i don't treat people the way i want them to treat me back, i live the life i want as how i want, and i got my own way of expression and doing things. I guess as long as people don't accept that, it wont mean anything.
