lost...in my own darkness..

A situation that i tried to avoid all time, down syndrome, depression and emo...Everything doesn't work out very well lately, most of the things around me doesn't really favour me. If i tried to be optimistic now, it means i am avoiding the reality.

Tears reminds me of when you need to talk to someone the most, are the time where there are no one you can talk to. I have friends, but i still feel alone. Almost lonely after all these. Sometimes i really wonder, if i really worth mentioning in people's life.

Feeling this way seriously is not what i wanted, it's hard to avoid, and i can't sleep. I really don't know what i should do now. Totally emotionless.

NO, i don't know..

Suprisingly, this kind of turn of event never came into my mind that it will happen. Ya, i rethink about what you said, it's exactly how i feel as well. But, it's abit too strange when people don't even wanna talk and discuss about it before they come to a conclusion...just like that to end the road just because of what you think ? It's probably sounds like my fault again for not doing my part, for me whom didn't do what i was suppose to do. At the same time, wait..at the end of the day, it was still my fault.. what about, putting into my shoes and think of what i really want instead ? all these while, people have been thinking what they want, this..that..its all about them them them them them..i don't believe that girls need security and pamperness only, everything, that has feeling need all of those, including caring as well. And again, i really do not know...what you think i know.. This post will stay even private incase, whatever i wrote to myself change ur mind again not because of what you decided..





Anyway, at this point of time, i'm glad that you can walk properly and go out again. Sorry cause, there's no way that i could take care of you, nor do i could be with anyone at this moment right now. Hope, you will find your true happiness.

And i do not know when you gotten better, when you start going out, where you went except staying at home rest, what you were doing at home when you're not online. No, i dont..