do you feel the same to me too ?

i think about you all the time,
do you ?

i wanna see you right now,
do you ?

i wished to give you a hug now,
do you ?

i miss you every second without a-miss,
do you ?

i am so crazy about you,
do you ?

i love you more and more as day pass by,
do you ?

how are you ?

A simple question that i always asked myself
how you've been doing, is what i always think of
but as much as i not want to admit,
it's true that, as far as i am from here
there's nothing much that i can do
except, sprinkling all the words,
where it doesn't help much at times.

I know you're in trouble
I know, you're in need of help
I know, you need a hug
and as much as i know, you needed love

That's just, not something that i'm good enough to give
not good enough, to tell
nor do good enough, to hold on to.

As of now,
i just hope, there will be a better tomorrow,
for you, everday...

i missed you, and...i am deeply in love with you.

closer to you

although i'm as busy as i am
even tho i'm working all the while
i've been always thinking of you
loving you

everything i did
every, single thing i succeded
every moments that passed by,
brings me, a little bit closer to you

i wonder,
when will be the day,
that you be just right beside me.

i miss you

dream ?

it's been awhile since i remember the last time i dreamt
this morning, i woke up with the weirdest dream of all time
a mixture of all kinds of things i knew
a group of people that i've never seen before
a situation, where i could never imagine i could be in.

There's only one thing that remain clear,
the one thing...that i always longed for
the only love that i believe in
the one person, that i love

You're the only person, that i remain in love with.

where i stand ?

it hurt even more
when you realize
you were not needed
as much as being a friend
to the person

you love so much.

pain ?

it hurt
when we want to be there, but we can't
when we need a hug, there's non
when we need help, it doesn't exist
when we wanna do something you want, and yet there's nothing we could do

and it hurt the most

seeing you in pain, when i can't do anything at all.

gliding forward

As day pass without knowing what will happen next
each day, i anticipate a word from you just to make my day
and the day itself isn't complete without you around.

Everyday i have been hoping the best,
and i'm sure i miss you more and more, as day pass by
thinking of you, day after day
i kept reaching for you without fail everyday
just to hope, that you know i'm around.

Tonight is just another night,
under this full lunar moon
from the bottom of my heart
i love you, is the only thing i wanna tell you.

and there i waited

without knowing where i'm heading
without knowing how it will ends

i waited.

staring with blind eye

even tho it's been awhile
that you've been gone from my life
all these days, i've been
thinking of you all the time
never failed to miss you everyday
loving you more and more as time pass by

i wonder
could i really be wrong about my own feelings ?
or, i'm really in love with you.

how fragile ?

it's amazing that how a sentence can change one person life
how a set of word can turn one's world upside down
how a questions, could generate even more questions

i've stop whatever i've been doing
it blew my mind goes blank
while my eye stare blankly at the screen
i stop chatting with everyone for a while
slowly, i walked into my room, on my bed
hugging my pillow tight enough near my chest
closing my eye, and i told myself
this pain, exist...
it's the proof
that i love her

Even in the most heartbreaking moment i've been through
i can't believe, i'm still having such faith
having, such painful thoughts, to keep moving
is this, what other people would wish for as well ?

steps

i've been going, round and round
writing the same thing over, and over again
i guess, it's time, to make a decision
so that i could move on,
so that, i could escape, from this heartbreaking scene
and this is where another question pop up,
at where i am standing now,
should i ?
or, shouldn't i...

fallen

things that happening around me is nothing but unfortunate
fell and hurt the same place over and over again
my leg
it's painful, as if it'll break anytime soon
my heart
shattered all the time, as if it's a broken glasses
i wonder, how long i could keep this up
trying to move on taking with my usual optimistic thoughts
is harder, than usual
when i can't find anyone suitable to talk to
the more i think of this
the more i miss you
the more i need you
the more, i'm afraid to tell you

just to prevent
you to feel the same as me now
when you're in your blue-est mood
where i won't be able to be there
wont be able to help you
wont be able to borrow you my shoulder to cry on
wont, be able to hug you in my arms.

just to be with you

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.

I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.

I'd rather die with you, than to live without you.

at world's ends

if i were to leave before you; i would made you hate me, so that you wouldn't be sad missing me.
if i were to leave after you; i wont be able to live without you, and my grave would lie next to you.

the snowflakes, that will never melt

the rain has stop
the weather is cool
the mood is blue
the food have gone cold
the waterbottle is empty
internet is loading slow
the work has done
while the songs kept running
in this world of routine
have i really found what i really want ?

i'm always afraid,
if people, not having faith in me
for not knowing, what i really want, and
that they wouldn't understand me.
The things i do, the things i said
there's always no real hidden meaning on it
but they still misunderstand
people, still get me wrong

i never like to explain
i never like giving reasons

even tho there's them whom don't understands me
i still have some, whom always get me even before i say anything
i'm glad, that i knew them
at least, i wont be saying out loud that no one actually understands me
at least, there's a reason to move on,
and at least,it gives me more courage, to love you
and because of you, i found a reason to move on.

just to be with you

I hope whenever you are down, you will think of me;
I hope whenever you are sad, you will think of me;
I hope whenever you are frustrated, you will think of me;

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
I just want you to know, whenever you need someone to be there,I will always be there for you.
I do not want to be the one who share only your happiness but bare your burden and sadness as well.

No matter how tough the road is, I wish to be by your side, hold your hand and we walk through it together

I just wished to be with you.