It's been awhile since i touch my books, there's 3 fiction lying infront of me, that i don't even have time to read it. More likely it's because there's something more important to know, than those who people created.

Just finish the 11 days event at The Mines, tired ? No, but stress; YES ! But overall it was fun, and memorable. Tho i didn't attend their own photo section, due to the work during closing. Not sure why i'm doing so much, when i'm also one of the temp staff, maybe i'm just trying to be nice ?

Gonna meet a client that request for a programme tomorrow. Or should i say, later in the afternoon ? This is the very first time i was given such a big task (well, compare to handling the whole group of people during work). But seriously, a year ago..i'm very confident of myself, being a programmer, but now..i know nuts about programming. Might as well give myself a chance, to start over again, since i'm..already lost...and since, the path already light up. =)

Was thinking of going oversea at the end of May, hope things will goes smoothly. Australia is a very weird, or should i say an unbelievable place, even just now friends was talking about Australia during yamcha section. Weird ? not. That bless place, already become part of my life...for now..

Took me awhile to write a CV, it's already 347am here, and i still haven't start writing my resume. Even tho i wasn't inform when i need to submit it, but meeting a client, and interview at the same time, will gonna add in more things to stress on myself. Didn't know if it's good, or bad; but all i can just say is "I have to move on".

Found out how much time i wasted after writing the CV, 2 years ? or maybe 3 ? doing things that never complete. How much i wish that time can be turned back, and start over new just like games. Well, it's not games we're talking about here, it's life. Good thing is, people learn how to regret, the bad is; they're not forgiven.

"Girls are hard to pleased, and guys are not trusthworthy." A typical statement that'll come out from a typical girl, everytime when we talk about relationship, and love. It's weird, even tho everyone knows that it's fair in love and war, but it seems that none of them actually remember that, when they can't get what they want, nor doing sacrifices that they wouldn't want. It's just as same as a question to every lover in this world, "How much you willing to sacrifice for someone you love ?", and as for me...there's no actual, or exact answer. Things changes everyday anyway, shits happen, but as for the commitment i'd made, i can only say the love that i had now, will only grow, and sacrifices are for the love i committed in. Silly ? Sweet ? Dumb ? or Lovey dovy ? I would say, it's up to the person to decide, but not our own.

Time after time, people would think of what they can do for someone they like/love, such as when the time you get your salary, you would think of what to buy. The time when you pass by a clothes shop, you wonder how they'll look like on those clothes. Or maybe when you're having a meal that you kinda like it, you wanna share it with them, and wonder if they like it. Well, people wonder all the time, assuming, and guessing. Human being, aren't mind readers. They are born with ears and mouth to communicate, and a brain to determine their actions, and faith in them. A heart, that fill with emotions, and actions, which will ends the wonders, or thoughts. I've been wondering all the time also, wonder how much can a person go, for believing someone. People get dissapointed easily, but how many of them would bear with it till the end of time ? I'm suppose, even if i get the answer from someone regarding this, it won't be understandable, cause...even i myself whois bearing with alot of sadness, along with happiness. Still can't find an answer to that.

They kiss, hug, holding hands, whisper, sending gifts, celebrating anniversaries/etc, going out, sharing foods. From the outside, they're just a typical lover, where every lover would do. But, how meaningful would all those things be ? There's always a different, when you kiss someone you love on their cheek, or..a friend. All i can say is, it's still up to a persons. Someone might upset about their partners for kissing others, even it's just a greeting. But even some that understands that, they kept quite, take the pain to themself, and goes on with their life. Since, they want the best out of their partner, why want complain over something that they always do ? I always wonder, if a feeling of love will detoriate overtime when things like these happens, when..we keep the unhappiness to ourself.

No matter what happens, it's always good to handle it onsite, and solve it as soon as possible, rather than running away. Cause, if you tend to run away and thought everything will be fine, things are always happening behind...and that's why, people should always tell their close one, that they're not alone. And most importantly, be honest with our own heart and feelings. Because we never know what kind of word we said, that might hurt them forever.