unconciously, developing da love, towards you..

I guess, feelings wont go anywhere if it were to keep it inside without letting it out.

This is the first time, that i felt so depress, and yet..i'm glad..and never regret
tho i knew how it will turned out
tho i knew there are still things that i could do, that i could push this harder
tho i knew, there are things that i could just force it out from others.
Somehow, deep inside me, i have never been able to do it.

Even though, i always ask them to look for passionate love, instead of just looking at long term relationship
even though, i always ask them to brace themself and be brave to get together with the love they found no matter what future lies
even though, i have been always tell them it's never too late until they got attached.
even though, i have always tell them that people who simply blurt out breaking up aint someone worth being with

I, myself...were never brave enough to do all these.

For all these night, i couldn't even tell apart what are the things that i should do, what are the things that i would regret or not anymore
I am trying, to cut things short by trying to forget about the love that i had,
But for some reason, somehow..it grew even stronger day by day.
I guess at least that means, the love for you was for real...

Having a crush on someone without others knowing, is the sweetest thing that could ever happen, but the reality....are always another matter..

And so, i think it's time, to seclude myself a little bit more and be more contradicts to these world...i guess, sooner or later i'll be back to the world of my own...