lost...in my own darkness..

A situation that i tried to avoid all time, down syndrome, depression and emo...Everything doesn't work out very well lately, most of the things around me doesn't really favour me. If i tried to be optimistic now, it means i am avoiding the reality.

Tears reminds me of when you need to talk to someone the most, are the time where there are no one you can talk to. I have friends, but i still feel alone. Almost lonely after all these. Sometimes i really wonder, if i really worth mentioning in people's life.

Feeling this way seriously is not what i wanted, it's hard to avoid, and i can't sleep. I really don't know what i should do now. Totally emotionless.

NO, i don't know..

Suprisingly, this kind of turn of event never came into my mind that it will happen. Ya, i rethink about what you said, it's exactly how i feel as well. But, it's abit too strange when people don't even wanna talk and discuss about it before they come to a conclusion...just like that to end the road just because of what you think ? It's probably sounds like my fault again for not doing my part, for me whom didn't do what i was suppose to do. At the same time, wait..at the end of the day, it was still my fault.. what about, putting into my shoes and think of what i really want instead ? all these while, people have been thinking what they want, this..that..its all about them them them them them..i don't believe that girls need security and pamperness only, everything, that has feeling need all of those, including caring as well. And again, i really do not know...what you think i know.. This post will stay even private incase, whatever i wrote to myself change ur mind again not because of what you decided..





Anyway, at this point of time, i'm glad that you can walk properly and go out again. Sorry cause, there's no way that i could take care of you, nor do i could be with anyone at this moment right now. Hope, you will find your true happiness.

And i do not know when you gotten better, when you start going out, where you went except staying at home rest, what you were doing at home when you're not online. No, i dont..

Worried

Out of a suddenly, there's so many things i need to worried about...for the night..

I just realize, there's alot of respect going on around the internet depending on how much u edited a picture, expression on articles, the font that you use, colours, and also the design itself. Thanks to whoever contributed~

I am confuse..

Confuse, not knowing what i really wanna do...as of now, i can't even figure out why am i feeling weird.

Why does it have to be the lense ?

Sometimes i wonder, why does it have to be the lense which create a nice image ? I really dislike and hate ppl saying those words instead of giving a constructive comments on a picture.

Why does it have to be the lense ?

Sometimes i wonder, why does it have to be the lense which create a nice image ? I really dislike and hate ppl saying those words instead of giving a constructive comments on a picture.

Do people really realize ?

Do people realize things that you've done actually carries meaning ? sometimes, people would just dive into their own thoughts, their own reasoning when they judge on someone else action. I mean, if the person who is doing it, instead of thinking and assume "what is usually" meant, why not sometimes, try putting yourself i other's shoes and think whether if it's not actually what you think it means.

I nearly gave up on caring for all these friends, nearly became someone who hated to being hated, nearly...lost myself there. But, no matter how it is, you people will still be my friends. It's true, i am angry at times, it's true that i am speechless at time, but...it never last longer than a minute. So please, give yourself a chance...

Why do you find them ?

And again, i always wonder...sometimes, do everyone knows what's important, and what matter the most in a conversation between friends. Do you ONLY call them when you need them ? and throw them away when you had the things you wished for ? Or, do you think they are a spare tyre in your bonet that you can rely on when you need it, and you dont check it when You dont need it.

It's been awhile since i got mad at something, seriously...if you do not take someone's word seriously enough to give a reply, i think...you shouldn't expect someone to answer your questions, what's the point of asking so much when you don't even care about the answer, or you do not wish to know the answer ?

People will have all kind of reasoning when it comes to complaints, and yet they never know when to appreciate things that happen around them. Wait, you might think "I do appreciate", but...do you really think so ? I wonder..

You may avoid the mirror and lie to yourself about something, but your friends will be a mirror that you can never avoid, if they choose to lie, nor do tell the truth.

Am i that annoying ?

Sometimes i really wonder, is it that coincidence that people just went off halfway when i talking to them ? or, they just find out that i am annoying. I wouldn't wanna think of all these...