Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel
F ailure in keeping my love one always happen in my life
A nything happen is all my faultI hate to admit. But, it is...
L onglasting love will never appear to me
L ife for me is so hard, dull and meaningless
E ven the road i am walking is full of excitment
N ever ever want to think of my future to seek for another love

A nticipation for my love one to come back to me?
N ever will happen to me
G ive or Take?
E ternity love?.....Can you believe that?
L ove...i hope it's still exist..

Decided..

Today, i have decided...

One of the Phobia~

Been making alot of enemies on alot of things i've done, what i've said, performed, and especially when in games.

I still remember the first game i play, Ez2Dancer, i made alot of enemy by outperformed them BY alot, imagine playing a hard song that ppl can't even pass, i can perfect it with hidden mode. Especially during that time there's alot of guy who think they are the best, but beaten up by me..in game. How ironic when i never intend to show off or anything, but..people just don't get it. Same thing happen to PopNMusic, RockFever, Ez2DJ, KingOfFighter, TimeCrisis, ParaPara (-_- damn), the Machine to Win Toy (Ya, i get 2 HUGE toy for RM1 only last time), and certain marvel games. Because of all these, i only target to have fun more than to be the best.

The same things happen continuesly till RO time, O2Jam, ESPECIALLY MapleStory (Where i argued with Singaporeans all the day just because they think i hack, and i quit cause i can't stand them), continuing to Various Online game until now (Cabal, which is the last).

Because of all these, i've began to afraid, and start to avoid playing multiplayer with other people. I really don't know why, cause..i just wanna have fun..and no other meaning. Please forgive me if i offended anyway of u guys, cause..i really don't mean it.

lost...in my own darkness..

A situation that i tried to avoid all time, down syndrome, depression and emo...Everything doesn't work out very well lately, most of the things around me doesn't really favour me. If i tried to be optimistic now, it means i am avoiding the reality.

Tears reminds me of when you need to talk to someone the most, are the time where there are no one you can talk to. I have friends, but i still feel alone. Almost lonely after all these. Sometimes i really wonder, if i really worth mentioning in people's life.

Feeling this way seriously is not what i wanted, it's hard to avoid, and i can't sleep. I really don't know what i should do now. Totally emotionless.

NO, i don't know..

Suprisingly, this kind of turn of event never came into my mind that it will happen. Ya, i rethink about what you said, it's exactly how i feel as well. But, it's abit too strange when people don't even wanna talk and discuss about it before they come to a conclusion...just like that to end the road just because of what you think ? It's probably sounds like my fault again for not doing my part, for me whom didn't do what i was suppose to do. At the same time, wait..at the end of the day, it was still my fault.. what about, putting into my shoes and think of what i really want instead ? all these while, people have been thinking what they want, this..that..its all about them them them them them..i don't believe that girls need security and pamperness only, everything, that has feeling need all of those, including caring as well. And again, i really do not know...what you think i know.. This post will stay even private incase, whatever i wrote to myself change ur mind again not because of what you decided..





Anyway, at this point of time, i'm glad that you can walk properly and go out again. Sorry cause, there's no way that i could take care of you, nor do i could be with anyone at this moment right now. Hope, you will find your true happiness.

And i do not know when you gotten better, when you start going out, where you went except staying at home rest, what you were doing at home when you're not online. No, i dont..

Worried

Out of a suddenly, there's so many things i need to worried about...for the night..

I just realize, there's alot of respect going on around the internet depending on how much u edited a picture, expression on articles, the font that you use, colours, and also the design itself. Thanks to whoever contributed~

I am confuse..

Confuse, not knowing what i really wanna do...as of now, i can't even figure out why am i feeling weird.

Why does it have to be the lense ?

Sometimes i wonder, why does it have to be the lense which create a nice image ? I really dislike and hate ppl saying those words instead of giving a constructive comments on a picture.

Why does it have to be the lense ?

Sometimes i wonder, why does it have to be the lense which create a nice image ? I really dislike and hate ppl saying those words instead of giving a constructive comments on a picture.