Hesitation...

I hesitated to attend the Art Nude Workshop. In fact, i'd actually thinking of a reason for not to attend. Let's just says that, i was hoping it was actually a Glamour workshop. Bleh, in actual fact, i'm really not convince a mere Model can actually help a photographer to improve. How should i do...i really not sure.

And i guess, this is not the only thing i'm hesitating. It's hurt to know the truth, and it's pain to go thru with it. I'm sure there are more people that having the worst compared to mine, been through all sort of stuff that i might not know, but...does that really matters ?

I'm really confuse...at this moment~

Is it really worth that much ?

Sometimes, i really wonder if people are actually thinking why they do this, and why they do that. IN short, the reason behind the action they do. Do they even think about it BEFORE ? or AFTER what they have done ?

There are alot of time, where things that you think is right, was actually wrong. And vise versa. In actualy fact, today i've seen the real face of everyone that i was doubting all the while, let's just says that, it's hard to swallow the truth.

You people has been wasting alot of time, and dissapointed me, and more over, lost my trust on you. If you still think i would treat you guys the same after tonight, sorry. It might be abit hard.

Well, not like there aint anything good happened tho, let's just says that, i love being together with people WHO won't simply think i like them just because i talk to them often and share our thoughts together, In actual fact, they were consider as "best Friend" that people invented long ago. Let's just says that, they're more valuable than anything else i could think of now, as they can never be replace. Thanks for being there.

And oh yeah, no matter how gift you are to this world, you alone cannot change the world =P Quote from L, someone whom i think it resemble alot of myself, just that i aint that smart as him, yet. hahaha.

I hope i'm wrong..

I really hope i am..

I really Wonder...

that when only people will realize on the things that they did. Once you're too used to what u did all the time, they'll start to drift off from their own track, and went on to the other path. There are times that they were informed on their changes, and there are times that themself knews about it. But all the times that we're reluctant to change.

My english has been weird lately, without knowing what word to use, and using the same word over and over again, am i at the edge where i can't move on anymore ? Or maybe, there's something that still blocking my forward path. I really don't want to think about that, as i'm afraid of the final answer, that there's possibility that it won't be something that i like about.

And i really wonder, what do i really want....i wonder..