I wonder how many personality can one has ? Like someone i know..he's actually quite a sweet guy...that i know..but infront of other, he cuss, straightforward, and abit the irritating sometimes...but hey, people still revovle around him..lol..so, unconciously, he's a sweet guy..just that no one ever thought of that =)

Still got alot of friends, that you cant really see their personality from their first look and conversation..cause most of them..are really hidden...but hey, the reason why you still hang out with them even tho you complain, is the best proof that they're good people =)

It's been awhile since i felt this way...happy, sad..but satisfied..to know someone care about me that much, and to let someone know that i care about her that much..is a feeling that no one can comprehend...well, some people say money, fame...and power is more important that love, for a guy..don't know why..i don't see all those things more important than the girl i love...i am living now, with all my heart, unlike last time whom always keep everything to myself, giving false expression...but hey, as long as people understands me, and i dont lie about my own feelings..everything is cool =)

Yet, another directon-less entry...

Even tho i'd said i'll be fine since the very first day, even tho i had said i don't mind..but till now, i have to admit that, things is getting harder and harder...getting hurter and hurter...wait..i mean, it's getting sadder...and much more sadder, and once in awhile, i'll go blank when i tried to pretend...pretending that i'm okay..

I had always ask, why cant you made things easier for both of us, why cant you just settle things as fast as possible, why not, you just make sure that time that we can spend together, not wasted on time that you don't want to waste on. You had always tells me that how dislike you are to spend time on something else..and yet..you're still doing it, i know..you might have no choice..but, do you really have no choice ?

After thinkin of all these stuff, and i came back to myself again..maybe i just deserve all these, maybe you just wanna be secure...and maybe, that's why i can't really decide what you should do now, since..everything happened is all my fault..well, since it's that way, maybe..i should just cheer myself up now, for saying everything is all my fault..

I never know, for having sms not replied, or waiting for phonecalls nor sms..is that painful...every minute, seems forever..for knowing you're with someone else, that i cant be around...and..for not knowing what's really going on..worse of all, for knowing that things i didn't mean to sound like or said, has hurt you...my life, getting suckier...i wonder, if i can sell my soul to the devil...

Been through alot of feelings in this past few days, found out that lunch hour can be so sad, due to one small matter. Well, you can say it's quite a big case, yet..doesn't matter..what am i saying..

After years thinking stuff about you, spending time with you, became your angel, and devil and the same time. I was wondering, was i even deserve a second chance ? not to mention, that can i ask for anything else ? Well, all i want is to have you by my side....the past, is pain..haunting everyone...for i, who are the ghost created those days, i think...it's the hardest part, when i'll have to be the one to cure all those things..

And all i want...is to be with you...

after a long wait..finally it's your lunch hour ^^ Going out an hour early just to not let you wait..heh, reach Wisma genting at 1210pm, well, it's still early, and so i walk around to kill some time, tho the destination is only 7-11 and wisma genting = =

Well, after walking back and forth at that 2 places till 1230, finally i decided to stand near the elevator instead of looking like an idiot wandering around there..lol..

And so, you came down..too bad you didn't see me once you reach, but it's all okay since i see your smile after calling out for you =) And so, we had our lunch, and enjoyed our precious 1 hour lunch time of yours =P

Went to Maju Junction to take iC after that, only waited for half an hour tho for the queue, and came back around 3 something. Looking at clock, and knowing i cant see u for dinner, and so i decided to sleep, and hope that i wouldn't be thinking too much on why i cant find you.

After hours of sleeping and waiting, finally, it's 6 something. Had my dinner, chat with u awhile, and playing Dota to get my time pass. Wanted to go take ma shower, but kept thinking and worried that i might miss you call when im having my shower. Well, you should be home at 9 or 10 something tho, since you say you'll get home asap, and dinner is all i can think of that you'll be having.

Waited and waited...the clock seems like taking forever to tick...and worse of all..it's already 10 something, enduring the pain of not getting any replies and worried for nothing, finally a call frm you, that saying you're home. Even tho it's abit late, well..i guess it's fine, since i'm gonna see you =)

Sadly, things didn't work out as what i wanted...was wondering what you're doing whole nite, and you tells me dont mention about it. Ok, you might have some reasons...so i'll just let it be, i thought that you might be jumping of joy after seeing me, but who knows, i pissed you of without knowing it's actually my fault, that i don't really know. I cant believe this, i was only hoping to know what you did, and was hoping that you would be happy after i waited so long and look for you. But, nothing seems working right...sadz..and i cant even call and talk to you about it after i reach home...haihz..